February 2011
12 posts
Nothing about life is forever. A bad haircut will grow out. That huge zit will go away. The fight with your friend will end. French class, pilates class or whatever else your are dreading will be over soon. The seconds that you cannot breath because he is standing beside you and he is oh so lovely, and you are sure that their isn’t a more perfect male specimen on the planet will one day...
please don't stand so close to me. I'm having...
call it anything but love and I will… make sure to keep my distance. Say i love you when you’re not listening. do not run. do not run. do not run. do not run. do not run. do not run. do not run.
"the world doesn't know what to do with...
just take a second and breathe. you might not look the way you want. you might not have all the things you want. people might not believe in you the way you wish they would. he might not love you the way you wish he would. but you are alive. you are here for a reason. the streetlights are going to turn on tonight. eventually you will fall asleep (even if it is after hours and hours of tossing and...
text message: a love story.
In my entire adult life I have dated 2.1 people who lived in the same city as me. I do not count “singer” because he lived in the East Village while I lived in Queens, and anyone who has taken a ride on the E train under the river in the middle of winter knows that Queens is a different city (or a different planet depending on the condition of your mind). There was a skinny rocker in...
Your definition of crazy differs far too much from my definition. I guess that is what made watching you go crazy so hard for me. There is so much space between acting crazy and losing you mind. come back. I loved you then. You and all your crazy. I hate you now. You and all your crazy.
sometimes I could see him (pretending the sparkle in the air) sometimes I could feel him (as he searched for the safest place to rest his feet) and sometimes I cried for him (and all the wonder he lost along the way) -kylie johnson
If it's not like the movies...
I laid awake for hours last night. I stared at the wall. I was pretty sure that all my fears were going to eat me alive. I could not breathe. By morning I had devised a brilliant plan to run away from everything, go hide in some European country and drink tea all day, live alone, without any knowledge of the entire life and world I left behind. I would base my success on if I brewed a good cup of...
Let me learn to listen only to the beautiful things YOU say about me and not to the horrible things I say about me.
remember when someone suggested that I make a special “fearless army” shirt for you? Well, here is is. i hope you like it. We had our yearly S+B photoshoot today + the amazing Lindsay Rosenberg shot this (unretouched!) sometimes there are gonna be days that test your will. I had one today. days when it seems like everything is just SO much harder than it needs to be. days when is...
You say, I only hear what I want to.
I wrote you a letter, but I decided to tear it up into little tiny bits and sprinkle it over my granola this morning. I ate up all those words that I will never say, because once I say them, this will all be real, and anything real is scary, because having someone could one day become losing someone, and I have lost enough to know that I am a very bad loser. If you want to read those words, you...
She collects Tear drops.
Things I have learned: -Totally okay to cry, on national tv, to your friends, by yourself when the USPS website makes it really hard to mail things. My very smart friend C. Perri said to me “don’t have a breakDOWN have a breakTHROUGH” I have learned more from the tears then I ever did from the easy stuff. -Someone else’s version of “perfect” most likely looks...
this is where we both break free.
“Go after her. Fuck. Don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or a tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run...
