June 2010
23 posts
cause you broke all your promises
Many moons ago I dated a fella name nick. Nick was kinda rad, but then I met his sister, Christina and I was hooked. Months later Nick broke up with me. Christina and I were upset because WE didn’t want to break-up. SO we didn’t. We have been friends since. One time when a boy broke my heart she ran from Philly to NYC and sat on my fire-escape smoking cigs while I laid in bed and...
my darling neighbour stella came over today to find me hunched over on my magical flowered chair in total devastation/defeated mode staring at the wall. I wanted her to leave instantly because I knew that of I opened my mouth to speak that a million little things that live in the deep dark places that make up the hell of me would come out. So, obviously I spoke, then cried, then learned to...
frug-a-licious
people spend their lives trying to look like the girls in the magazines, be like the women from the movies or dress like the chicks on the red carpets. Not me. I don’t own a tv. I don’t buy magazines. I often get asked who is your celebrity crush, who is your favorite celebrity- I honestly don’t have one. All my idols and crushes are true talents. Dancers, choreographers +...
There are so many things to say this weekend. BUT I am skipping over all of it for this. There are so MANY wonderful things happening on So You Think You Can Dance this season. First off my dear friend miss. Stacey Tookey is kicking butt. Second of all, I will be at the filming on wed (can’t tell you why JUST yet!) and third KENT BOYD IS TOP 9! Almost a year ago I met Kent because he was...
I’ve got to cut you out.
why'd you turn my kiss into a contract?
It’s isn’t that I don’t want a boyfriend. It is that more than anything I do not want another ex-boyfriend. Excuse me while I get all “summer” on you, but relationships are messy. I just cannot fathom failing again. I cannot wrap my head around being made a fool of ever again. I just really don’t want another break-up in my life. Break-ups hurt, are hard to...
Living Your Dream...
So many of you know that I started hosting my own show on teen.com called “living your dream” I love doing this show so much because I love meeting people and finding their inspirations for what they do. Everyone has a story, and I love meeting people and finding out theirs. I am not sure how exactly I fell into hosting shows- but I am so glad I did. Make sure to head over to teen.com...
ablie.
you're so damn beautiful.
remember that time we woke up and he dragged me to the living room and made me slow dance with him in my pajamas to this song? I love slow dancing. I love that him at 6’5 + me at 5’6 make me head directly on his heart in slow dance position. (his heart beats 64 times a minute, I counted) I love boys that treat girls like the precious little mysteries that we are. Maybe it will end...
i'm in the corner watching you kiss her.
this song breaks my heart. have you ever caught a glimpse of the “new love”. no matter where you are in life it never ceases to rip apart your insides right? even worse is having to stand in a room and watch him kiss her. trust me, i know. Somebody said you got a new friend Does she love you better than I can There’s a big black sky over my town I know where you at, I bet...
everything has changed.
first of all- did you know I have a twitter? yup. little ol’ me, I am pretty sure you do to, well you should follow me…@keltiecolleen This is someone you should know. Calen Kurka. Teaches at BDC in NYC. He is a magical artist. Knowing Calen and learning from him, and being his friend has changed the way I see myself, the way i feel about life and the way i feel about art. I am...
that tiny sore part of my heart
I know this is for the best. Being afraid and being overwhelmed with fear is usually a really good indicator of what you should do next. Waking up in the morning and crying until your eyes burn is very depressing but it also is like a giant rainshower for your mind. Only after you deal with the emotions of rejection, anger and sadness can you see clearly, or at least clear enough to get out of...
there are always going to be things you wish were different and a list of things you wish you could redo. There is no rewind button in life, so chin up and realize that the universe is giving you exactly what you need. A reason to remember why you cut someone out of your life and a reason to be excited why you let someone else in. A reason you didn’t book that job, tour or commercial. A...
what if?
This weekend I did some super zexy dancey dancey at the viper room in honor of gay pride week! I and now…some thoughts. dating and falling in love and how much it directly resembles auditioning and booking a job. So, I see you formspring haters- calling me out for being a hopeless romantic and falling madly in love 4,643 times this year, but I have to defend myself here. I have been...
Think for a second about where anger comes from the many ways of displaying it, and about creating a more positive life. People being rude or mean to you is their own flaw, even though they think they are pointing out something wrong with YOU, hate is more about their insides and flaw than yours. Try to remember that when they make you cry. I am totally, on most days, okay with myself, flaws...
new mantra: get the &%*# out of your own way.
something I know for sure (and that I am very happy about) one day people will write about me, not for being a girl who dated some guy who had a smash song, or the girl who did eye high kicks with Santa, or the girl who inspired you to do spins and stuff. they will write about me being the girl who helped this girl make THIS happen. one day years from now after grammy’s are won + goosebumps...
5678
Things I have learned: -no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief. -credentials on a wall do not make you a decent person. -what you see in the media is a carefully crafted version of what suits in boardrooms want you to see, what they want you to like and what they want to define as cool. people pay other people thousands of dollars to get their faces in...
unitarded.
so American apparel is launching their new DANCE line with American Apparel. This means that now you can order all your hipster girl stuff at the same time you are buying your 10th pair of pointe shoes, or your pink tights. AA likes to think they started the “leotard” as regular clothes style thing but, as I have explained before, I’ve been in leotard since I was 5. no big...
did you see that arabesque?
sorry but this video is the bomb.com. as a dancer i often have conversations with other dancer friends about how annoying it is that we study and study and train and train and for some reason in 99% of dance jobs we just hop around and do one left kick, granted I have based an entire career on that left kick. I love this video because it is so different and fresh. the dancers are stunning and even...
fall in love or fall in hate.
the way a heart breaks: first night. cannot move. breathe. think. eyes swollen from sobbing. a list of why’s. a list of regrets. a backpack full of denial. a phonecall could change it all back, but the phone never rings. forget eating. forget swallowing. forget smiling. walking away and no one is chasing after you. scared. alone. ruined. months later. culprit finds their own regrets. sorry....
get back to the point(e).
i’ve been busy all talking about love and shiz but let’s get out heads on straight and jump back into the dance world. this little one: a) a better dancer than me and she is 12. b)this is maybe my favorite song of all time. c)i have no doubt in 8 years when she is old enough she will be stealing my job from me. gaga ballet: a) this is fucking EPIC and I am just putting out there...
it might kill me.
all i really want to do is love you a kind most closer than friends use. the reason that your heart it buried deep inside your chest behind the protective walls of lungs and layers of skin is because hearts when exposed to extreme cold or extreme truth usually end up feeling burned. I tried so hard to numb myself and list all the reasons why love and marriage and forevers and promises and soul...
inside my white room.
“What you gave me was a reason. Not an excuse. Because there’s sex, making love and fucking. And then there’s you.” -www.iwrotethisforyou.me There is this white room called life. I can clearly see myself standing inside it. I have no idea where I am, or what I am doing, what I possess or where I am going. But inside that room is you and that is all that matters. It no longer matters...
