February 2010
15 posts
Is that a heartscar in your pocket or are you just...
I wonder why it is that people always place such importance on a certain time frame. I always hear things like, I am not ready, I am not there yet. When did the world get filled with people who thought that there was ever going to be a good time and place? The bottom line is that if you wait too long for the perfect moment, that moment will pass you by. There is never going to be a...
January 2010
19 posts
dances + sings
I have been running around with all sorts of negativity threatening to come spilling out of my mouth. I am having fake “in the car” conversations with people that will never happen. I am fighting the urge to call people out on their yuck. I hate this feeling. It happens to everyone though sometimes. I woke up this morning with disappointment running through my veins. I felt heavy. I...
I don't get mad, I get disapointed.
there is this great quote (iwtfy?) about not letting people treat you badly, and that they need your permission for that. I love that. It is so true. I live in a magical world where I like to highlight and gold star all the good stuff and skim over the bad stuff when it comes to human interaction. I see only the good in people, and I can play along with stupid excuses all night long. This is a...
she is golden.
I feel so blessed to have so many amazing people in my life. I was OVERWHELMED with the bday love yesterday. I spent many years not celebrating my bday, or throwing really cool bday bash’s for other people because I always felt like buying your own cake, or planning your own party was lame. Guess what? It is not. I collected all my best friends into a magical room and it was the best...
I dug this grave. It fits me perfectly.
There is a large part of me that really, honestly believes that I was just not made for loving. I was made for working. It’s sad and it’s happy. and it’s sad.
home.
I just enjoyed 48 hours at home. I got to snuggle with Hobo, hang with my mom + dad + bro and turn around a fly right back to LA for rehearsals for my first booked job in LA! Last night my family + I got in a 3 vehicle car crash. It was night, the road were terrible. Thankfully no one was seriously hurt. The crash was scary + reminded me that in an instant how much life can change, just a few...
hobokins!
you know how everything thinks their child is the best + prettiest? so do I. I’ve been home less than 12 hours + she has not left my side. She slept on TOP of me all night. I wish that humans were able to give love the way doggies can, hobo is so loyal, so snuggly, and just wants to be loved so badly that all she can do is kiss, cuddle and love on anyone that comes her way. I have never...
sigh.
Maybe Charlie was wrong. The picture was not beautiful because she was beautiful, it was beautiful because he took it. The night is not perfect because the sky is clear, the rain has stopped, the coffee is frothy, my scarf is soft, the traffic is light, the city is beautiful, the soundtrack is delightful- it is perfect because he is. sigh.
win.
First of all happiest bday to my sister shushu. if you are not already following her blog well, you should. http://shuflyeyehigh.blogspot.com/ She is delicious. So, first week in El Lay is under my belt. I am not longer sleeping on the floor, I know my cross streets, I have a semi-sweet ride. I had some bad auditions. I had some bad gut feelings. I had some moments of “I love LA!”...
dear little army.
First of all, thank you for loving + following + commenting + reading. The past four years of this blog have been so amazing + I am happy that you come here daily to share life + love + hope with me. Below are a list of official sites that I am a part of- Please visit, re-visit, tweet, re tweet, tell your friends, tell your haters, tell your doggie, comment to me, comment about me, sing a song,...
mean girl.
the act of not forgiving someone is like swallowing poison and expecting the other person to die. I spent so much of the last year biting my hate, suppressing my hurtful feelings and instead putting all of it on me. Yesterday I had the meanest day of my human life, I told two different people what I honest thought about them and what they were doing with their lives, that I think they are...
honestly.
Maybe I am a little slower than the rest of the planet when it comes to heart healing but I own my past. I am not afraid to say, yea, it hurt, yea, it took me forever and a day to be okay about it. I do not shy away from hard questions or huge failures. I learned more from the failures then I ever did from being on top. I learned more about myself from being hopeless and crawling out from that...
fresh starts. fresh hearts.
I wouldn’t change a thing. I have spent tons of time wishing I didn’t have to go through this, or have that happen to me. At the time all of it, from getting cut at that big life changing audition or getting my heart broken by some guy seemed like the worst thing in the world. I wondered why me? why this? why now? It all lead me here. To today. All of those people I let in and...
I got on a 7 am flight to LAX from NYC yesterday morning and I wanted to cry. My mind was filled with questions like “why the heck am I doing this to myself?”. I felt sick to my stomach, I felt high levels of scared shitless. My idea for the year was to work bi-costally, as I always have. This time from LA and not NYC. A new city, a new apartment, a new car and a new agent all at one...
god bless new york city. sorry i am missing in action. enjoying my final days with my lover. back soon.
the book.
speak the truth. even if your voice shakes. my truth might not always be pretty. but it is who I am, what I have lived and that i believe. I have 45,670 words of my truth to share. wish me luck. it’s a big day for me.
Lady Danger double so sexy.
I made it! My husband Adam is the cutest! The A-team cast. When I was a little girl all I wanted to be was a Radio City Rockette. I never dreamed that my dream job would become such a defining subject in my life. For all the hardships, broken bodies, long hours, travels logged, and pure exaustion- it is still the best thing in my life. These people are my best friends, I have made more memories...
little miss. obsessive.
I spent alot of time in airports. If you see a girl that looks like this… come over and say hi. But don’t spill her tea, she hates plastic lids. Please appreciate the fact that even while blogging I have spot on turnout. dancers unite! I am off to put my partypants on at our closing night party. If you are not following my neighbour C.perri on her blog-you should. I am sharing with...
gravity.
“I have spent all my life with dance and being a dancer. It’s permitting life to use you in a very intense way. Sometimes it is not pleasant. Sometimes it is fearful. But nevertheless it is inevitable.” -Martha Graham Martha. The woman who once famously said “Our arms start from the back because they were once wings.” The very same quote that I have had hanging on...
