July 2009
33 posts
Stranded in the aftemath of those who leave and...
There are men out there who like blondie’s. There are women who like muscles. I myself, like musicians. I do not do it on purpose I swear. My brain tells me, stock broker, dentist, 9 to 5’er, Loftiss yells at me each time I come to her and say “I met a boy…he plays music”. It is actually funny at this point.I have come to accept the fact that this is one of my...
Tell you that I wanna go, but I wanna stay.
I must once again clap my hands (perhaps even a thunderclap) at my friend Stacey Tookey. It has turned out that everything amazing this season on SYTYCD is from her. This brought tears to my eyes tonight, and it actually amazes me that such brilliance can come from such a calm, caring, sweet grounded person. Most of the time, the best artists are nutcases and everyone put up with them because...
Goodbye Hobo.
“Oh honey, you will find a better man, but you will never find a better dog.”- my mom. 2 years ago a very unexpected litrle doggie made it way into my life. I can remember getting a phonecall while I was in Canada and the voice on the other end said ” I am gonna get a dog today”. My response was “that is a very bad idea.” This was a boy who would invite...
I am still afraid of the dark.
I guess if you look in the urban dictionary under the word “fearless” you see my name in definition #4. I gotta say, if I never create another thing on the planet, never inspire another person, book another job or dance another step…this is enough for me. I was having an amazing convo with some great friends post show about the rise and fall of “fame”. I’ve...
If I could be so bold. I'd ask you to hold my...
I love this piece by Travis Wall, I am so excited to see what he does next in the dance world. What a true genius. I feel like he made this for me. That is my favorite kind of dance, when it expresses something that I cannot seem to do with words. Everything the locket, the catch and release, the push and pull of a boy and a girl. I think they tore a page out of my journal. It is such a scary...
FULL OUT! FEARLESS!!
Today is the proudest day of my life! Finally after 6 months of work my designs are available! I hope that everyone loves the choices and I am currently working on even more pieces (sweats, bags, hoodies) for winter. The Fearless tank came from the idea of doing something that everyone could wear. I wanted to make something for dancers and non-dancers alike. The idea came after I went through...
It's about that time again.
Good news…the new Xmas Radio City commercial has been made and your truly is all over it. This is good for two reasons: #1- I make lots of money #2- It will constantly remind me how out of shape I am and how IN SHAPE I was last xmas. It’s strange to watch this video because so much has changed for me since last season… I can honestly say I was so joyful during all these...
I walk down another street
watching shane sparks routine tonight on SYTYCD: “now what would this be called” - mommy “It’s hip hop mom” -me “oh, I thought thought in order to be hip hop they had to wear baggy pants”- Mommy I am with Nigel, I feel like this season is super paint drying material. I feel like the ideas are old. The dancers are uninspired. I judge everything by the...
will you spend your life with me? for the next 10...
One of my favorite broadway voices is in the news this week, as the dates for his new musical (and Jerry Mitchell of course) CATCH ME IF YOU CAN are pushed back because of this: “The lesbian sister of Tony Award winner Norbert Leo Butz was stabbed to death in her Seattle-area home on Sunday. Police are investigating the murder as a possible hate crime.” First of all, my cast did a...
rainy. rainy. rainy. blue.
I am getting to the point where I see that parts of me are beyond repair. I have given away these part of me that hurt, the hurting parts, over and over. Everyone promises to fix me. Everyone promises to be better. I am having a hard time deciding if I want to even try anymore, to be fixed. Sometimes at pilates Rolando will give me a really hard exercise and I will say “that seems like alot...
back in the day I used to live in Queens...
A story that goes along with my very first headshot! So long ago…black and white, babyface, and LONG hair (thank you to whoever told me to get bangs!) . A good reminder of just how far I have come…. For me the end of tour ment going back to live my busy struggling dancer life in New York City. It was the begining of the summer and I had just moved into the quintessential struggling...
The world is really big. I am really lonely. Sigh.
Video killed the radio star.
I spent the morning looking for ways to describe awesome. I found one in the form of my friend Sheryl. We have worked together about a zillion and three times and no she is off doing HUGE things like Beyonce’s Ego video… Sheryl shares my love for the sailor hat and that is why today she is on my blog, plus some really kick butt dancing! One more time, be kind to everyone, and be...
never is a word you can sing with alot of despair...
saw you at the station. you had your arm around what’s her name. she had on that scarf I gave you. you got down to tie her laces. Dear Self, You have spent six long months trying to be understood by all kinds of folks. You are really worn out from the emotional roller coaster of being misunderstood. It is totally okay to not be liked by everyone-you don’t like hot peppers, everyone...
Peace. Love. Dance
Here are the first looks at my Sugar and Bruno Ad campaign photos. This is maybe the most exciting day of my life, other than in 6th grade when my mom shelled out the 109 dollars it cost to buy me lace up Jazz boots like Paula Abdul had. If a year ago you would have asked me if I could do all this I would have said, “one day”. That day is here. I am doing it. I am being the best I can...
the coolest girl ever.
So, sometimes you meet people at you instantly click. This happened to me and my label mate Chelsie Hightower. Yes she is super amazing and on Dancing with the Stars but more importantly, she is just hella cool. Within the first 4 hours of us being friends we shared bras and shoes, made up a song about the Sugar and Bruno warehouse, played with toys, realized our mutual love of Diet Coke and...
tokyo + I both have tats to match our shirts, of...
I think that teaching and inspiring the next generation of dancers is one of my favorite things ever. What a totally rad day. I was talking to these nuggets (what i call dancer chicks) about being fearless, how you stand in a class with a teacher you have never met in a room with a bunch of people you don’t know and are expected to just act cool, calm and collected. No one ever feels that...
welcome to: pick yourself off the floor
Amy Dunn sent me this today, it is this summers DEX girl ad. Pretty scandalous but I guess it really shows off the self-tanner I am trying to sell! I got to see Amy this weekend and she is just rocking and taking the NYC by storm. So sweet. Lucky me is laying the most amazing hotel room somewhere in IL. The had a doggy greet me at the front desk. This is my kind of place. I miss Hobo. I wonder...
I think that I cried for days, now that seems...
Hi. I am in New York being the best friend can to one of my best friends who is going through some serious grief. I am not going to be able to take the time to do anything but hug her for the next few days, so thanks for understanding. I will leave you with some things that make me incredibly happy. This song. This guy. YET another one of my friends choreographing on SYTYCD! Get is Joey!
its here!!!!
I just got a huge box full of my first samples of my shirts from my line! I cried! I cannot believe how amazing everything turned out. It looks cool laying on my floor but even better on! The fearless tank is so superrad and I am trying to decide which color I should do the tshirt in? HELP? I am sitting here on a day when I have cried my eyes out all morning, my guy called me back three times to...
Crazy Horse Carmen!
Last night I was lucky enough to go and see Carmen Electra’s one week stint at the Crazy Horse Paris. I had heard the show was good but I was BLOWN away. Keep in mind this show originated in Paris in the 1930’s (I believe) and thus is very risque, european and very naked. When I was in Paris and went to see the Moulin Rouge I was honestly dissapointed, but Crazy Horse (even the Las...
sometimes dance says it all.
So I am sitting here wanting to talk about and post pictures from my amazing night meeting Carmen Electra at crazy Horse Paris and seeing what I think was one of the best shows I have ever seen. I can’t talk about that tonight. I came home to watch some left over SYTYCD and this piece was on. And so… How is it that 6 months later I am calling my mother in the middle of day, crying,...
The fine line.
This is my bestie Spagatti. It is 3:27 am I just got home from a really brutal night of shooting and I feel all alone in life and in my convictions. I wish Spagatti was here to make me a cup of tea and talk this through with me. He always has the best advice. I will say this. Maybe to some I come off like I put myself on a pedestal. I do not think I am better or worse than the next guy, but let...
Courage. Passion. Hard Work.
When I was in high school a friend of mine who was an amazing hockey player used to use masking tape and whatever city he was in would tape up his mantra above his door. I was so inspired. I started doing that same thing. It started over my door in Sherwood Park, and I continued through 4 different bunks on 4 different cruise ships, and apartment in East Meadow, Kew Gardens, a airline crash pad...
Oh la la she was such a good girl to me.
Tonight I had some friends that are constantly surrounded by beautiful women come and see Peepshow. They loved it. Told me it was the best show in Las Vegas. Told me that I was the most beautiful girl up on stage and then had a little chatty with me afterwards over some dinner and bevys. George wouldn’t stop touching my hair, saying that it was so nice to see someone with real hair, then...
She's dancing fancy pirouettes!!
Last night I made a vow to go to sleep before midnight so that I could make use of a many hours as I could of this glorious Monday. So much going on, to prepare for and to do. I was blindsided this morning with the amount of breakups that can happen in just a 24 hour period, good thing I went to bed because I did need all my hours, not for errands but to digest what on earth has gone on. Is it...
i'll run
This seems fitting this morning. I must be a crazy girl for pushing away someone great because I’m scared. I really am. Just. Scared. It is so easy to hold onto hurt and use it as a reason to be bitter and alone. It is so much harder to start fresh, trust someone and dive in fearlessly! My mom says I think too much, that seems like the understatement of the universe. Full out=easy...
WOW. Here they are. Told you I would answer them all! #1- how is it that through all the heartache and tears you can stay so positive? It’s incredible to see you give props to the people in your life. You’re pretty awesome. Thanks. I am not always positive but I realize that I am one of the few people in the world that get to live out their dreams. I do alot of journal writing,...
I am keltie. and this is my heart.
Tonight is Q & A night. Ask away in the comments and nothing will go unanswered. I usually charge $250 an hour for my agents to auditions class so take advantage! XOKC
change.
This shouldn’t come as a surprise but… I have no idea what the heck I am doing. I realize that everyone is waiting for me to grow up, but here is the thing. I am really only 12. I danced so hard as a kid and was such a super nerd that I really had no chance to learn these lessons. I feel like I am 45 running a company and still a 12 year old inside my heart. I literally had to ask the...
Holly. The super dork.
I completely forgot to blog about my opening with Holly Madison. What a fart. (That’s a joke for you Holly.) So, Holly is amazing. She is so sweet and cute and so dorky. I’ve made a new friend as well as a new castmate. Last night we went and saw a topless magic show called Abra-ca-sexy! It was Abra-ca-bad. But it was a blast regardless. I have never been with anyone in public who...
Sarah (za za) Mitchell!
(sarah, asia and I during the hottest NBA team contest in ‘06) MY HOMESLICE Sarah Mitchell + her new tv show “Dance your ass off”. Sarah and I danced on the Knicks together, did the Vmas together, danced in Sugar and Spice together, did the peepshow workshop together, did the maxim old spice ads together, and about a million other things. She is a doll, amazing and only...
Happy Birthday Canada!
Happy birthday to my motherland. She’s not too shabby for 142. To honor this great day, I shall name my top 10 things I love the most about Canada… #1- Sesame Street was in French and English and it helps to impress people with skills of counting to 10 in both dialects as well as knowing how to order milk for my tea in Paris. #2-Matthew Good Band… Good is his last name, but he...
