November 2009
18 posts
My head's lost but I'm heartstrong
I am stuck with a problem. And you’ve been trying to pick me up like a ghost from the past But you found that it’s hard with your blood stained hands I am standing in the middle of a street and on one side is this person who no matter what I do still creeps under neath my skin whenever I become even a little bit weak. In unfairness of it all, I still ask the question “how is it...
Thank you.
In the middle of the 12 hour travel day on American thanksgiving I got thinking about what it means to be thankful and what I am thankful for: Now, Canadian thanksgiving was weeks ago, and I was so busy opening the show that i never really spent much time reflecting. I got to spend my thanksgiving dinner listening to amazing blues in Memphis. Totally not your typical dinner, but I loved it...
forgive and forget you a thousand times.
I handed over my baby (my book) to my dear friend Christina Perri this week. You know her. You love her. She is one of the very few people’s opinions that I trust. She knows good from bad. Many years ago when I dated her brother she turned this ballet prep school weirdo into some semblance of a rocker-chick seamlessly overnight. She is the coolest girl I know. I wanted some feedback. I...
It just does not get better than this.
“Some luck lies in not getting what you thought you wanted but getting what you have, which once you have got it you may be smart enough to see is what you would have wanted had you known.” -Garrison Keillor
You have blood on your hands and I'm feeling...
I had scared him I suppose, maybe the fact that I did not want to FOLLOW him around anymore made me unattractive. Maybe the fact that I had learned to take care of myself, moved myself into Manhattan and had fallen back into my career fill force had freaked him out. I had begun to have my own money, career, and life again. I rarely needed his help and I suppose that made me ugly. It bummed...
Live from the dave cave.
Last week I was so happy to have some old friends at the show in Ottawa. Chris + TL are BAD ASS ballroom dancers + were on ships when I was on them when I was a little 18 yr old! They were awesome friends to me, and it was amazing to see them. TL hosts a Tv show and they got to sit in the media box for the show + had an awesome view of this end girl stage right! Check out this fun video for...
Note to you: Never ever forget how great you are. You are something totally special to someone. It is 100% enough to be important to just a small little group of people. World domination is a really nice idea but an endless to-do list is not so nice. Someone asked me in an interview recently, what is the best advice that I would give to anyone. This is it: Be you. Be the very best version of...
The designated waiting area.
I am waiting for patiently in the designated waiting area. So when you are ready, please come and put me in your arms. There is a line I wrote recently that says : Learning to live alone was impossibly heartbreaking. Now, I have been “living” alone for quite a bit of time now, but, we never really are alone are we? For the time after a breakup you live with the ghost of the...
Sugar + Spice = hold onto your nice.
I was writing on the bus today and I was thinking about what it means to be nice. People like to define me as “nice”. I hope that one day the universe creates a way to be both “nice” and not get walked on because of it. It makes me sad when the evil people-who are selfish and ugly inside always seem to get ahead. What if what kind of car you got to drive and what magazine...
ET + me.
Today I hung out with my brother + papa in Montreal. They are seeing the show tonight- my brother asked me to be “just slightly off” so he could tell which one was me. Not a chance! Tons of early morning PR with CTV and the CBC and finally got a copy of this little guy! Entertainment Tonight. enjoy!
I have been working so hard finishing up my book. I’ve been working on this part, which at times is very difficult to write. Have you ever felt like this? “I would make excuses that this was the best possible situation because I could work my tail off and not be distracted by him. I was distracted, of course, I thought about him constantly. Hoping that I would make it to the end of...
Ouch! Ouch! My feelings!
I am mad. This beautiful thing we live on called the inter webs is such a tricky place. It leave us all faceless. It makes conversations meaningless because what else do I need to say after you check my facebook, twitter and blog. The question : “What did you do today?” become obsolete. More than that though I feel like there is a new war out there. It is not a war we fight with...
“I had given it all up to begin again at the beginning. Who did I want to be. What did I want to do? Who would be my one to love? Quintessence. I waited on the possibility of a spark. My one extravagant heart’s desire to live large, to find love, to know joy. The mystery of geography is that you can both find and lose yourself in the latitudes familiar and strange. We stumbled into...
Never is a promise + you can't afford to lie.
I ponder the effects of luck and disaster on the human heart. As a child I had no real awareness of the human fragility, but I absolutely knew that shooting stars pirouetted across the universe. Life, my search for truth, seemed dusted by a dash of magic. Only now in the wake of fortune, do I truly understand. It’s so easy to misconstrue even the tiniest words & actions when your...
Your hand, so hot, burns a hole in my hand.
I have been dreading opening night. The actual opening of the show is the best part of my life. I do not feel the need to do drugs because I greatest drug is simply opening nights. The first time the curtain raises to an arena filled with the energy of 10,000 people-I get high. Maybe this is why in the fallout of so many careers in the entertainment business we see entertainers heading to rehab....
Some say "our hair is in our eyes" - Some say...
I wake up with the best intentions for happiness. Always. Jump out of bed. Do a kart wheel. Skip to the loo. Some days, my best intentions fall short. Today is one of those days. Playgrounds are graveyards And all of our scars are permanent, permanent There’s no placement for places I’ll always love you, you’re mine Numb is the new high, old memories die out ‘Till...
Who will hug you when you lose it all? You.
Today I did 6 interviews. The ranged from a webzine with readers in 30 countries to Entertainment Tonight. We are only a few days from opening night and the Christmas circus is full out. I was caught off guard today when one reporter mentioned that he was an avid reader of my blog and had re-read parts of my last entry to me and commented that he did not think that I sounded very happy. He...
Stage Right End Girl take two
First thing is first. I am WAY behind of designs. Remember when this was supposed to be done months ago? I want to know what you guys think of this hoodie! The arms will have thumb holes. What do you like? What would you change? Do you think Black is the way to go? Let me know. PLEASE. I have been staring at the computer screen for so long I am not even sure that I am making good choices! My...
